Lost

As far back as I can remember The failure was always there It was the only real companion that I have ever had Not meant to live like this Consciousness is nothing more than a vicious cycle And I am being bled dry by my conviction I've spent my life trying to find my confidence And found absolutely nothing Life is a lost cause Too weak to carry on I wish I'd never met who I once was Not meant to live like this Pursuing the love in all that I have lost But I have left myself neglected Deserted from the start Longing for a chance to wander A chance to chase my aspiration When you're devoid of feeling You just do as you're told Hatred is exhausting But it's all I'll ever know