Jacob's Ladder

To say that all of those words meant something Would be to say that your petty wars killed everything And I wonder if we ever had one of those moments Because I can't count the times I tried to cut away the dead, hoping to grow up again How much I tried to kill the smiling boy The burden of falling out of the womb How much "not enough" I ever gave How much "nothing" I ever received I will solve these dreams before I wake up this time This loss weighs, it will always weigh