Untitled [c. 2014]

[Hook: College Smart] Today I planned my suicide Got into my newest ride Bridge over troubled water I slid into the border (Right? x2) [Verse: College Smart] Last night I made my momma cry Tears rolling from her eyes She lit another cigarette As I continued with the dishes and She came in to eat her chicken breast I told I was leaving, wouldn’t be out long Woke up in the morning and she had gone Left a note saying, “Thanks for everything” Somewhere along the way I’ve lost myself So many problems in my life that I done caused myself Half the times I’m pissed off I’ve pissed off myself Wonder if I’d be better off if I just offed myself That’s the reason I don’t open my mouth The same reason I don’t finish this album Every time I rap it seems I let another skeleton out And now I’m pretty sure I’m better without them But people say I’ve been hiding too long Yet I’m crying while I’m writing these songs Me being honest on these records Starts problems with my exes But all that matters is they singing along (right?) So do that dance, do that dance, do it Go on little puppet go on do that dance They won’t let you live it down if you don’t do that dance And make a song that won’t let down fans (Right? x2) [Hook: College Smart] Today I planned my suicide Got into my newest ride Bridge over troubled water I slid into the border [Verse: College Smart] Ayo my dude I don’t always agree with you or your wifey And I ain’t trying to make you just like me But I love you both Only friend who had my back through the worst And I can’t think about you laid in a hearse So I’m just trying to let you know, you need a lifestyle change Want us to kick it ‘til a ripe old age, you feel me? What goes through the mind of a Marvin Gaye? Who earns fame at a time he should walk away Who doesn’t leave his home without a bulletproof vest on Then takes a bullet in the chest by his own name Maybe that’s how he planned it Maybe that was the only way Marvin Gay would kill Marvin Gaye Do we live for happiness or do we live for perfection? People keep telling me I need to talk to a reverend I barely talk to my mom, I ain't talking to no god And I ain’t talking to no father when I barely call my father Even though I know he’s lonely These days come and go too fast for me I wrote my first song in a year and I felt guilty Could’ve spent that time with someone I should go see Wanna know how I feel? Just go and listen to my songs They all started as love poems Can somebody please tell my girl I love her? Cause lately she’s found it hard to take my word Baby, I’m sorry, but I can’t tell you all my secrets I’m not ready for you to think of me different But you have my heart; only one I trust to keep it But I know you just wanted me there for you I’m sorry I couldn't see it I’m sorry I couldn't see it I’m so sorry I couldn't see it I’m sorry I couldn't see it again (Right?) [Hook: College Smart] Today I planned my suicide Got into my newest ride Bridge over troubled water I slid into the border