Part Time Summer [c. 2014]

Ey, you know I meant to get this out sooner but I just been busy You know, I... fuck it I need to let it go [Verse: College Smart] I’m dealing with the pressures of becoming a man Trying to find the best way to make them understand Cause I know that lately I’ve been distant, and I get quiet Everytime they ask about my relationship with Liz and Honestly if I had felt when I explain it they would listen I would say it with no shame because I’d know I could convince them But it feels like everytime I try, they’re on a mission To intervene and tell me what they saw in all her pictures So I block ‘em out, but giving up is way harder than winning Feeling like LeBron with his decision 25, in my prime, when is it time to do me? I’ve been looking at these pictures of New York for two weeks Like it could make a difference, shit, I don't even know I guess I'm trying to find a better life that I can live in Like how long I've been telling all of y'all I got an album for ya And it got me wondering how long can I be rapping for? That’s hard to swallow, that's what she said I might as well laugh about this shit if I'ma be stressed But I don't know how much is left out here for me to learn Mending fences with former friendships and bridges that I've burned I guess I’m at the point I gotta let them all know I just need some more time to grow Don’t wanna let em go, I need to let ‘em go [Hook: College Smart] I think I need to let it go Let it go, let it go I think I need to let it go Because nothing even matters [Verse: College Smart] I saw a picture of you and your future Mrs And figured I'd reach out and send y'all my best wishes And nah, I ain't fishing for no invite, just been a minute since we’ve talked And this warmer weather got me reminiscing Feels weird it’s been years since we kicked it And now every time I see you it’s been cordial but it’s different And I understand it, just want you to know this isn’t how I planned it I’m going through some changes And I’ve yet to get my hands around it Shit between you and Liz? To this day I don’t know what the problem really is I know we did some things, I never said they were right But dog, that’s the love of my life I was running out of time for you two to amend And I felt like I had to choose between my two best friends Even though you never said it, your actions spoke volumes And at that point, I was too stressed to work it out I was confident I’d never look back and now I See that house in my video and think about how I Knew things had changed the same day we moved out it Just two dudes, both too stubborn to do something about it Responsibility falls on you and me both I did some shit out of spite but I ain’t trippin no more I couldn’t let it go, I need to let it go [Hook: College Smart] I think I need to let it go Let it go, let it go I think I need to let it go Because nothing even matters [Verse: College Smart] You deserve more than another part time summer But I’ve been working round the clock so we could be with each other However, on my drive home I can’t help but to wonder If I can’t straighten shit out, I know that you could find another I know it feels like our time has been robbed from us So I been sitting here searching through jobs Something 9-5 maybe it won’t pay as much But I rather I could see you when I get a day off And maybe that’s the point when this could finally take off We’re going on like 5 or 6 years now I think I’ve forgot Not sure if I should count the times that's we fell apart And still you've stuck around although it's been hard Now I don't know what Dr. Oz would of called that shit But to us rappers? That's a down-ass bitch Wonder how many years I have before you get to thinking about kids And get to thinking that those kids should be his 9 times out of 10, I don’t worry about other fellas But he’s the one and probably a better fit to be wedded So when I sound like I’m yelling, just know that I couldn’t help it He’s a good dude, and I must admit I get a little jealous I don’t want to be in the way of your dreams So I’m let you do you if you can let me do me And I promise I won’t be looking for a Mrs But living in this crazy world, I’ve never been too fond of guarantees But, have I told you why the caged bird sings? I’ve always tried to give you all the space you need But now that we’re older, I think I’m figuring out Not every bird is trying to fly their way out Hey, hey, do you agree? It’s been a long time coming, this thing between you and me I can’t let it go I’ll never let it go [Hook: College Smart] I think I need to let it go Let it go, let it go I think I need to let it go Because nothing even matters