Book Of Rhymes [c. 2010-2014]

[Verse: College Smart] I am all out of adderall No sleep, no caffeine or alcohol This is me... in my realest form No front and no filter No one around I should conceal for So pardon me if I come off a little brash I ain't trying to kiss ya ass Like how I do at work Behind a counter with a drawn up smile and fake laugh While inside I feel like dying I'm trying to find a grasp And nah, my life ain't bad But I aspire for perfection Therefore, I'll never be a winner Doubters see me and sweat now ‘Cause I'm gettin’ hotter than the summer And I'm as cold as the winter, bitch [Verse: College Smart] I’m so sick a, gold diggas Thirsty bitches All of these liars, and fake killas Showing up at shows For spittas I flow sicka than I can’t sing, but I can rap slow Got a good job, but got no cash flow Say you hate me, you just an asshole I can’t hate you, I can act though I ain't no poster child I ain't no role model Somebody tell this officer I don't want no problems 8am backup alarm clock was ringing The first one I snoozed while sleeping That’s why I been speeding [Verse: College Smart] Honestly, I’m self-conscious and nervous around these bitches Same reason I drink, and end up behind these fences And $500 for bail for driving while suspended Body of a man and a brain like Dennis the Menace and Doctors and practitioners pushing to get these pills swallowed Prodding me with questions; examining all my pill bottles Bring me in to piss in a cup cause I’ll pay the copay Then treat me like a drug pusher, wish it all would go away [Verse: College Smart] I get the crowd going, all they hands up like the Dow’s open All I smell is sweat, spit, liquor and White Owl smoke Rappers ‘fore me left the building, the don’t wanna watch my show They don’t wanna see the difference ‘tween us like a Chronic quote They ain’t goin’ nowhere, Lonely Island, and I’m on a boat Goin’ deep, blue sea, these sharks surround me like a moat ‘Cause I got that fire in my blood, it’s running through me In these cold blooded waters, LL couldn’t cool me I, get my bread and butter sellin’ cells on the routine And my iPhone 4 makes sure my schedule never too free Other rappers having’ money trouble yeah, I got an app My fuckin’ day job could pay your bills, I ain't gotta rap But I do it, cause my family tree is rooted from the sewers Grew up on Chef Boyardee and now I’m craving Kobe skewers If you on the team, then keep your spot, don’t be stupid Cause I’ll trade ya ass for nil like the Sox, boy, I’m Ruth-less [Verse: College Smart] First thing’s first, gotta get a pen and paper Start jotting’ everything you’re thinking’, rhyme and be creative Now take them lines, spit ‘em out, all them feelings, get em out And flow it well to a beat before your lungs start fizzing out And if you still alive and conscious, put that CD in your pocket Bring it to your closest friends, believe when they say you’re the hottest Ha… and get an ego, you’re your biggest fan Put your rhymes up on the net and spread it like a pizza pan Large order, stack your cheese, large as a New Yorker Empire state of mind, turn an Apple to an orchard Rock the nation, takeover, no hiatus, break’s over Don’t be mad when they don’t want you, ‘less you talkin’ baking soda [Verse: College Smart] Sitting in this club looking round at all these dap givers Wondering how many of em really have my back if it Put them in an awkward spot, bet they take it back That’s why I ain't buying when talking all that jazz Every show I do, I see a dozen acts And I ain’t talking rappers, dawg, I’m saying actors Trying to get in on my grind, I call em Caspers See right through ‘em, but I amuse them with my chatter I got thing for looking fly and spiting women Made a name off of fighting my ex's and I been winnin’ Rappers say they murder me but still got no witness I'm a young Tony, talking will get you on top my hit list The game ain’t moving because the labels afraid to fix it I flow like a laxative, leaving these punks shit-less Haters allergic, they see me, they eyes itching Need Visine just to see what the fuck they missing [Verse: College Smart] While fake rappers getting the chains on they chest tooken And of all of these white rappers, I’m prolly the best looking I probably got a chance, I promise I’m gon prove it I hanging this on a prayer, if I don’t then I’m gon lose it And I don’t wanna lose it My book of rhymes [Verse: College Smart] Devil in a new dress, saving up for new breasts Looking like an angel but where the hell you get that new dress? Please, no, not him, anybody but that mothafucker Saying the same shit to you said to him just last night Details of the nights you spent while I was gone Why the hell didn’t you delete them from your phone? I didn’t need to see that, I almost wish you hid it Why couldn’t you be honest? You said you were gonna But the fact is you didn’t, so I’m sweating when you’re missing You told me it was nothing, now I question if you meant it And I am man enough to take my half of the blame I’ve made mistakes I’ll have to take to the grave But at this point, I just need somebody who ain’t you I can’t tell you that I love you, cause I hate you I’m a fucking liar baby, I’m just being honest [Verse: College Smart] I’m sorry doll if you don’t get this, I need to rid this Feeling I been feeling, I just need a minute Inferno burning in my brain and I just need the exit Where in hell is God at, I just need a witness I just need somebody else to see how hard I’ve tried Each mistake I make is like a homicide, it kills you And in turn kills me, we stuck in purgatory and I Always feel like I ain’t done enough to win your glory But I have yet to falter, look back at our story Our relationship has altered, something out of Maury But this shit isn’t TV, and although I never thought that it’d be easy I felt like we would find a way to see these Issues through, and now I’m on the fence like Mr. Wilson do We need Home Improvement, I know I’ma end up missing you And you’ll be missing me, I hope you feel the same, boo But I look into your eyes and know I ain’t gon’ change you [Verse: College Smart] My friends ask what’s been going on, they don’t understand us And this shit ain’t they business so, I don’t give em answers Cause I don’t think I have to Nah, damn, right… I ain’t never had to [Verse: College Smart] I tell you that I love ya, you look me in my eyes and I can hear it but I don’t get the vibe from ya It’s getting cold out, I feel the wind chill Blowing through this old house, summer life is sold out How we go about, living life like we mean it? Like everything we say is made of reason? And trust takes precedent over jealousy and treason? I’m a man of my word, so when I tell ya I been going crazy cause I want you, I mean it And when I tell you that I do this all for you, believe it But when the sunshine goes and the storm cloud snows I’ll be back to working on us like this song I wrote My book of rhymes