The Cure & The Poison

It's the payoff the reward The release from all the tension The biggest vice in my life and it adds a new dimension It's the beauty and the beast It's my fall and it's my saviour A good excuse for self abuse that changes my behaviour I love it and I loath it with a passion that's superior It fucks with my emotions and it makes me feel inferior It breaks me down and then builds up a wonderful illusion That brings out my emotions and adds to the confusion It's not a problem I can do just fine without it But I wouldn't chance it that's the fucked up thing about it It pulls me in and spits me out without a second warning It puts me right out in the cold While it's busy warming It's a hopeless competition and there's no way I can win it But I never tend to see the signs while I'm stuck right in it I play the game and lose the game There's no way to avoid it 'cos I'm too busy fucking up pretending I've enjoyed it The cure and the poison The loss and the gain Escaping once again The cause and solution The pleasure and pain All run through my veins All I need is just one more I promise I'll be fine It's really just a harmless way for me to kill some time I'll sit back and lose my track and work hard on a case It helps me blur out all the sharpest edges in this place It always gets the best of me while being etnertaining But in the end there's not a single ounce of sense remaining I scrape myself up off the floor and mend the broken pieces And do it all again - the vicious cycle never ceases The cure and the poison The loss and the gain Escaping once again The cause and solution The pleasure and pain All run through my veins