You Too

[Verse I] First drug was Flintstones kids vitamins I used to eat a bottle if my mom would leave a bottle out She found it out and I was banned from the cabinet Never had a chance to enhance but I imagined it Went from vitamins to mom’s mental health pills She felt ill, and I got it ‘cause it felt real Wanted to know why my mother was trippin’ A fatherless daughter that’s stuck in a mother’s position, publicly trippin’ Second grade, didn’t fuck with niggas They laughed when my mother came to pick me up in slippers Raggy sweatshirt, funky sweatpants What made it worse is when she saw me she said, “lets dance” Diagnosed as a schizophrenic She was lost in hell, I just kissed (?) in it But I was an ugly nerd obsessed with a lovely bird And a brain plagued with muddy words (speaking) You know I love my mother I just…never got a chance to express how that shit felt You know? Like, in that time period Ma I love you, I precede your strength, On everything I love, thank you [Verse II] Smoked blunts like the weed wasn’t rolled in it Couldn’t roll but my bowl overflowed with it I had no business doing dro, then it got too beautiful Started using blow, if you ain’t know, I gotta home in a UFO If you were close to me, you could go with me But if not, you move to slow, back to the matter baby I never thought that I could lose control Until I crashed when my stupid nose started leaking fluid Stupid to assume that blow was cruise control Fuck it, I ain’t got no use for a soul ‘Cause I don’t walk, I float, so My sole purpose is to let my soul reach the sol S-O-L, the sun, believe the UV can solve anything, like VE It’s after 6 in the winter Darkness, passion in mid December Bitch remember (speaking) I’m sorry, you know I didn’t mean to call you a bitch, you know Sometimes I just zone out…the voices, too many people… [Verse III] They say people lead you to the needle And since I’m your favorite drug, do you believe that people are evil? So what do we do? My phantom of the heart strings Who be standing in the dark with a man that isn’t all me It should be me or the best car currency could buy in Dubai, but certainly a ride Something that rides, perfectly on life’s course This road can make a nigga question himself, like a white corpse It’s black and white, got guys watching crimes more ‘cause it’s time for minds to soar like before Your wings might be sore but life is four times more When you spend you life’s height tryna find your spinal cord Hide from what? pick a vice live your life, get it right Can’t live it twice unless you live a lie If so, nigga die, no one listens to you Very few can exist in the truth, here’s proof Charles Hamilton (speaking) Sometimes I feel like I gotta die…and come back to life Just to prove…