You Can't Come Home the Same

I don't want to you to remember My face or name I just want to scream alone and know You all felt the same But paint your own picture And say what you will It never matters what I say It never matters how I feel I hope you’re not like me Desperate to leave Like when I smashed a mirror To watch myself break & disappear Whether concrete or sheets Just lay me to sleep Whether a bed or grave Let me live where I lay We fall As we slowly lose touch with the world Breath in We fall As we slowly lose faith in ourselves Breath deeper Point the gun back at yourselves The blame will be washed away Force fed hopefulness again It never got better Whether concrete or sheets Just lay me to sleep Whether a bed or grave Let me live where I lay No one will know how hard I tried to make it easy For those around me I kept it to myself Or maybe no one cared to listen Now you can watch me tear myself apart Right before your eyes Dedicated self deprecation All has left me but life itself