Face first

"Face First" I failed myself Again today Liar, liar It's always been that way I fell face first While I was over thinking Cloud my mind again Block it all away Insecure and undeserving Of all the love You were reserving Negative and assuming I'm numbing myself Just to keep quiet I couldn't commit When it knew all along It would end up like this I won't pretend That I don't want all my secrets back My own reflection Won't look me in the eyes Cause it knows Who I could've been But you killed him You killed him I tried to change for you Faked a smile and attitude I never wanted it to be like this I never wanted to feel a fucking thing I lost the key To purposely Keep everything locked away inside of me Still question myself Still hating myself Still everything I deserve Another blow to the head Slapped in the face By the things that you said This curse burns infinite Bound by the chains Anchored in my head And so it begins Every single good thing will come to an end Nothing ever lasts when every light in my path is burned out by my past