Suicidal Failure

[Intro] Remember how good things used to be? (Although I seem.. and appear..) Remember how good things everything used to be? (.. to the naked eye to be normal..) It used to just be so good It used to just be me and this girl; (.. thoughts grow haunted inside my head) Yeah, right.. rrright! (.. then strike! Pull out my naked eye and with this.. My mask of sanity's about to slip!) [Verse 1] Sittin in my room with a razor blade Thinkin all my days are played as much as my single needs to fade away Shoot myself in the arm and start bleedin Don't wanna go yet, stick a straw in my wound and taste my heart beatin Fuckin bitch left me and I ain't even peaked yet (Fuck all that noise playboy, this leak's wet) Smoke a bundle to the face lace my brain and neurons Carvin all my downfalls into my fuckin forearm (Cage snap out of this, it's just a girl) It's just the world, it's just a life, it's just a rusty Rambo knife Wedged between my ribs scratchin my heart up tonight I'm gonna pull this shit off in front of all my friends Went swimmin under the Brooklyn Bridge tryna catch the bends Didn't swim deep enough my head imploded ten percent Floated to the surface, the paramedic's like - what's this dent? (I want everbody to back up, he's still alive) [Hook - repeat 2X] I'm a suicidal failure, look my life's a failure I can't make it in rap because my birth's an error Do what I can to catch a quick death But I'm meant to be here and that's the fuckin hell I live with [Verse 2] Took the phone off the hook, ate multi-colored pills Washed it down with Absolut and started writin out my will Give my dawg bootlegs PS2 and DC To my girl who left me when she said, "Pick me or PCP" Since I love to smoke I thought it was a joke Tried to hang myself and I fell free from the rope Broke both my arms, my neck smashed my femur Got up somehow and limped in front of a beamer Cracked my rib cage, look what you did Cage, you're dying But I'm not dead yet I'm still trying Cut my wrist and walked past some crips bleedin red In hopes that I get shot in the fuckin head [Hook] [Verse 3] I drank a bottle of Jack, sniffed three bottles of kitty In the middle of the freeway walkin to the city So much PCP I changed my name to watermouth Pumpin Masta Ase I walked into a jewish +Slaughtahouse+ Throw myself on the hook, now that's the chorus Got split from my neck to my dick, now that's what gore is Hollow man look at all my dangling parts Dropping to the gutter with a piece of you in my heart Little piece of shit that I couldn't fling from my chest Should of stayed alive long enough to kill the fag you're with But right now, my skin is gettin stripped off Each one of my limbs is ripped off covered in thick sauce My head hits the conveyer, I'm not thick and a prayer is sick I'm wacthin a movie at Loewe's alone and you suckin some guy's dick Six seconds left when I die I'm gonna find her On some Poltergeist shit while my face goes through the grinder [Hook]