Hit The Switch

[Verse 1] I'm staring out into that vaccum again From the back porch of my mind The only thing thats alive I'm all there is And I start attacking my vodka, stab the ice with my straw My eyes have turned red as stoplights, you seem ready to walk You know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk 'Til then you're invisible [Chorus] Cause theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense And in the middle of drinks, maybe the fifth or the sixth I'm completely alone at a table of friends I feel nothing for them. I feel nothing, nothing [Verse 2] Well, I need a break from the city again I think I'll ship myself back west I got a friend there, she says, "hey, any time." Unless that offers expired, I have been less than frequent She's under no obligation to indulge every whim And I'm so ungrateful, I take, she gives and forgives And I keep forgetting it [Chorus] And each morning she wakes with a dream to describe Something lovely that bloomed in her beautiful mind I said "I'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine I have some where I die, I have some where we all die." [Verse 3] I'm thinking of quitting drinking again I know i said that a couple times And I'm always changing my mind, well, i guess i am But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side And when I kneel at the toilet And the mornings clean light pours in through the window Sometimes I pray I don't die I'm a goddamn hypocrite [Chorus] But the night rolls around and it all starts making sense There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live And so I do what I do and at least I exist What could mean more than this? What would mean more? Mean more? Ohhhh