My Mind

Verse 1: My brother [?] he just told me something personal Even though i haven't said much, I just hope he knows I heard it all Hope he knows Im down with anything hes tryna work towards Coz that shit cut me deep, cut me deep like it was surgical My aunty needed surgery, I swear that news there hurt us all Operating theather, I thought that could be her curtain call My mum contained her fears, but she was scared and I was nervous too Once again I chose to hide my tears behind a burning wall My fears where it was terminal, that took control of my mind Like I dont know if shes gonna live but I just know shes alive Like I dont know just what this is but I just hold it inside My heart just like a winter night, that shit gets colder with time Thats probably why I love my ex, but I can't tell her I miss her Sometimes i cut the whole world off except for my sister Man Im my own worst enemy, Im my own pagan I feel like my inner child will die if I dont save him Man it gets deeper than the surface, Ive seen a couple murders It ain't lovely but dont judge me think I seen that shit on purpose And you bumped your head when I was talking greezy shit on verses Told them ghetto, high and mighty and dont be screaming all my curses I tried to think bout what Loraine would do? Or what Shaun would think? If he saw me sitting in this room with all this drink About to over do it and then i over did it Tried to think it over then I over think it Chorus: Memories sinkin', deep in, leakin' in my mine All of the time tried to forget you Thought I could get you to be mine Memories sinkin', deep in, leakin' in my mine All of the time I can't forget to Try to forget you in my mine Verse 2: This ain't a nightmare, maybe Im just scared of my dreams I spent my life here, so maybe Im just scared to achieve Im in the light, when it was dark I was there with my team These women fighting for my heart that I wear on my sleeve But would they really want my heart if I told them it wasn't beating Told them how i was grieving, show me what you believe in Show me what you can show me, I'll hold you down if you need it But if looks is all that you got to show me then I can't see it Swear I can see them demons, hell yeah I can feel them breathing They told me they was the truth, and I swear I nearly believed them Thats scary nigga, I mean it, every chick that I've been with has been, jealous, bitter or seen me as benefits till I leave them Swear the victories sweetened, whenever chicks been the reason, you said that shit, its like beating dont get that shit, [?] I was jealous in the museum, touched what i werent supposed to, the fuck is your boyfriend gon do, tell him I'd love to meet him For real I can feel the pressure, no deal I can still get better I got substance in pen, you can feel every single letter My parents they were so poor, I was serving them on the corner And a while ago my circle was square till I cut the corners And my closest friend ain't got time to spare cos he got a daughter I times I think he feels like nobody cares, but hes not a talker I just hope he knows that I will be there when its important Thats the responsibility that we share, and I put my all in I was mourning in the morning, grieving in the evening No talking I kept my thoughts in, I weren't speaking on my feelings Wouldn't share em with a soul, its crazy man I know My baby cousin in the coffin, im just staring in the hole Like what the fuck happened? Fuck rapping and fuck trapping, fuck my life, fuck my dreams and fuck the mandem Then I take it back, I love my team, I love the mandem But the pain is mad, and its underneath they don't understand it Chorus: Memories sinkin', deep in, leakin' in my mine All of the time tried to forget you Thought I could get you to be mine Memories sinkin', deep in, leakin' in my mine All of the time I can't forget to Try to forget you in my mine