I Wonder

"All alone in the broadening skies Under the every night I will lie Scratching claw and grip the rails Every day my living hell "Oh God you know I've tried I know how hard I tried And oh I tried...... Uh...." Hey I'd like to daze away to a Place like no one has known In a state of mind I could call mine That only I could own Where I could hum a tune anytime I choose, and then there is no such thing as time Where I can feel no pain just calm and sane What a place for one to find Now you see I'm watching everything I do and they're watching everything I say Why won't they leave me be? Leave me be Why am I even here? I wonder... You leave me wondering (bis) Won't you stop watching me I said they're watching me, watching me, watching me Now in my corner I got the ceiling in my eyes Arms holding up my knees And rocking back and forth my life I didn't mean to feel this way When I walked into the door, Lord Then they ripped away my memories And I can't remember who I was before And I only wanted to be 16 and free ......and I wonder