Now You're Gone

[Verse 1] I know you're looking down on me, are you proud of me? Or are you upset I don’t spend time with the family? Or do you understand me, the way I’ve become? There’s so many things I wish that I could say to you mum I was seventeen years young when you past away I found it had after you and Dad divorced to find my way I’ve cried away the pain, although I didn’t complain Caught in the middle of the family separation Was stress in my brain, depression came I don’t know how I coped Hit the pipe, all my dreams up in a cloud of smoke It didn’t help but got me more confused Then I went to stay with Dad when you moved and you were crushed When I saw you in court after that letter I wrote The one that I’m regretting I wrote Felt like you’d lost your son, felt like I’d lost my mum That was enough and there was worse to come [Hook] x2 You know I miss you Mum I really miss you (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone [Verse 2] I never felt so close to anybody As I did with you and now that I’m older I understand why people do the things they do But I was lacking life experience, around ’89 shit got serious Started with some lumps, next thing I hear is tumours And everything the doctors tried was useless Radiotherapy, Chemotherapy, 4th of July ’91 down at the cemetery Knowing that this day would eventually come Hope you know what you meant to me Mum You were the one who said experience the world And do whatever you wanna do So I hope you’re really proud of this man standing in front of you I know you’re watching me and I can feel you at times You’re still in my dreams and you’re still in my mind It’s been fifteen years since you left me behind And I wish you were here now with me, sipping this wine I miss you [Hook] x2 You know I miss you Mum I really miss you (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone [Verse 3] When I look back I didn’t even know you at all I was still growing up and just a little confused boy Who never said goodbye when you left Last time I saw you, Nan told me not to talk about death On the day you passed away I was the last one called And when they knew the day before nobody called at all But you still see me going to Christmas, buying gifts Doing it for you, that’s what you would’ve wanted me to do I’m getting through life, yeah and I’m doing okay Started with you watching break dance back in the day How funny’s that? And you were there when I first did graff And you were my inspiration to get out and rap I miss you so much Mum but I’m not sad and grieving When I was younger I was mad at you leaving But the reason don’t matter anymore I still love you to death And forever after when I see you in the next [Hook] x2 You know I miss you Mum I really miss you (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone (Now you’re gone)Now you’re gone