In My Head

[Verse 1] I sit at rock bottom and reminisce about the past Gotta figure out the way I got into this circumstance It's possibly monotony thats gotten me hypnoticly robotic With my psychology, so don't bother me It's a problem that I don't know how to cope with I'm hopeless, meaning I hope less to notice it I'm so depressed, over-dosing-is-normally rou-tine N anti-depressents, are handy-when-death is crucial to me Cuz I don't know who to be, Shane or Basick Part of me begs for normality, the other hates it I pace in, a concentrated contemplation of it all Scribblin' my self-created situation on the walls I don't wanna talk at all, so let me sit In silence, idly listening to the violins And in time, I'll forgive myself Waitin' for you to forgive me too along with everyone else [Hook] In My Head, is a battle that I know I can't win In My Head, I try to handle coping with my sins In My Head, is a lonely candle that's burning within In My Head, is the cold hand that keeps pulling me in [Verse 2] I keep it movin', don't give a fuck about tunnel lights Cuz if I do then I know I'ma be like fuck life So I crush mics, with such might, to flush-my Uptight vibes and slit my wrist with a buck knife Sometimes, I don't feel like dealin' with it anymore Cuz when I try, I never seem to get off the floor 'N gettin' pissed off at the wall that I'm talkin' towards I write songs cuz everything else you all ignored Ya'll are poor? fuck you overtiming pieces of shit An interview is a fucking hassle to even get If you ain't happy bout gettin' money, leave it bitch I'd clean taco bell with a toothbrush if I needed it You see me pissed, cuz I didn't get life easy You got it made, so why would you wanna be me? 100 percent rage, love is something that leaves me Maybe I'm invisible, seems like nobody sees me [Hook] [Verse 3] I was given a mentality, I actually hate Cuz I lack the ability to be happy on any day So let me say, that some day, I'm gonna end it all Point the semi-automatic at myself and let it off I'm in need of help, that this life can't give me The broken toy on the shelf, and nobody can fix me Only thing I'm afraid of is the moment you forget me So whether heaven or hell, I want to know if you'll miss me I could be brightest genius in dark clouds Only communicating in alien sharp sounds Celestial pedestal, sitting higher than star bound But I stay so quiet, you could prolly hear my heart pound It starts now, turning the table on all of you Hip hops apostal, you can call me bartholomew You know that I'm gonna lose, this battle with suicide So fuck the help I refused, this is the end of the line [Hook]