Before My Friends Do

I think I hope I die before my friends do Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes When I say "friends" I mean family I like too The second tear friends I could horribly get through Now my life has shame (on me now) This is not nostalgia, this is not the past And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight Wouldn't it be nice if I could say "I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same" Let me tell you about this crazy list The best relative order of the people I know's deaths According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah So let's be safe because it's on me I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone This is not nostalgia, this is not the past And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say "I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same" I hope I die before my friends do