Mea Culpa

Intro: Cuz I love you all I'mma be honest with you More importantly I'mma be honest with myself You know what I’m saying It’s not that I’m trying to shut you out We all know what it’s like pretend And if you’re willing to take this ride with me We could probably both learn something Verse 1: Journey with me, as I take you niggas on a ride Through the valleys, through the peaks, through the rivers of my life Through the ups, through the downs, through the wrongs, through the rights From being born on the bottom to my uphill fight A nigga struggled but I bubbled Cuz I had my momma’s strength And my grandma’s heart I was cursed from the start My issues tissues couldn’t fix I cried so many tears I prayed for years For favor for For a better life Someone to hear That all I needed was a little love But niggas turned their backs Turned me down Turned a deaf ear on all of my little raps Kicked me out their school, sayin’ I ain’t know how to act Then when a nigga glow Wanna welome me back What’s that? Now all I get is daps ‘n’ hugs And pretend “I’m down with yous” But I don’t need that love So I walk around face down defensive as shit Man it hurts just to mention this shit For real Chorus: This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth Verse 2: Street life is expensive and what it costs some niggas Is everything But I’ve been buggin’ since I lost my nigga I’m paranoid with nightmares, but won’t speak on that ‘Cuz certain issues in my life that haunt me nightly, in fact I’m still intact but still gotta act like that shit don’t hurt And try to hide it on the side, but that shit don’t work On my life sometimes at night I feel my nigga standing with me Protecting me from all the evils threatenin’ to get me Protecting me from the game that claimed his life Either a nigga die tryin’ or he change his life I had to come to grips with the fact he won’t be comin’ back But as long as I’m spitting dude is livin’ through my raps As long as I’m livin’ dude is livin’ through my tats Through the best through the worst I still wouldn’t take it back Every time I see a star, I make a wish my nigga I’m tryna deal with it Real talk I miss my nigga Chorus: This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth Verse 3: I know a lot of ya’ll probably mad I mentioned this shit And I apologize, it’s definitely sensitive shit But I don’t know how else to deal with it Just being real with it real about it Shit’s eatin’ me up I need a real outlet I got the call I knew something was up Word on the wire, ‘Your sister’s about to get locked up’ I’m callin’ niggas liars whenever this shit pop up They’re like P.S. by D.S. your sis’s knocked up More B.S The next thing she’s ringing my phone Confirming the information that I heard ‘bout home Meanwhile I gotta keep a smile I’m dodging niggas calls I’m like my father just died The fuckin’ nerve of ya’ll When shit like this happen what’s a nigga supposed to do The sad thing, I woulda took a bullet for dude Niggas could never know Could never fully understand me Cuz It’s more than just incest when family fuck family Chorus: This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth This is my cannon my catechism my church My conviction my cult my religion my worth I pray god forgive me for the people I’ve hurt and I’m sorry for whatever it’s worth Copyright Shear Genius Productions/The Writer’s Room 412