Swim (Boston 11.16.03)

You keep telling me i'm beautiful But i feel a little less each time Your love is so colorful It flashes like a neon sign But i finally drove out where The sky is dark enuf to see stars And i found i missed no one Just listening to the swishing of distant cars I hope i never see The ocean again Pushing and pulling at me As i go deeper and deeper in Til i'm so far from my shore So far from what i came here for I let you surround me I let you drown me Out with your din And then i learned how to swim I was floating above myself Watching her do just what you wanted Poor little friendly ghost Wondering why her whole house feels haunted I told myself i was strong enuf That i had plenty of blood to give And each elbow cradled a needle But listless and faint ain't no way to live So i hope i never see The ocean again Pushing and pulling at me As i go deeper and deeper in Til i'm so far from my shore So far from what i came here for I let you surround me I let you drown me Out with your din And then i learned how to swim And you keep telling me i'm beautiful But i feel less and less so each time Your love is so colorful It flashes like a neon sign But i finally drove out where The sky is dark enuf to see the stars And i found i missed no one Just listening to the swishing of distant cars