Enemy

I need advice it's true But I won't hear it from you I don't remember when You last cared for the things I did I wish I could believe Apply all the sides you've seen Or you could be the only one Who knows the truth of me Am I the ugly one? It's easy to see past All of the kindness that you've offered me It doesn't last It's just a thought I've had If I could show you how I came to think this way Maybe you'd understand me now Sometimes our enemies Are closer than we think Sometimes the ones we trust May have to give up listening I wish it were the same As it is in my mind I'd lie to learn a thing or two Give me a reason why Why am I not ashamed? While I am standing still You want to move in me like you did before But I've had my fill You say your time has changed That you have faced defeat We might be older now But is it changing anything? It could be in a way We've learned to carry well Oh how I wish I could Remove this doubt I feel somehow I want the best for you So I won't look your way Maybe the clouds will clear And I'll be seeing you someday I wish it were the same As it is in my mind I am lighter on my feet When I've left some things behind