Tug Of War

[Verse 1] Mama praying for me, grandma praying for me Satan preying on me, Jesus waiting on me Cause I been straddling the fence, it’s time to make decisions I been thinking ‘bout heaven lately, don’t think I’ll get in Cause I been going back and forth I love the way I’m living But I hate it at the same time cause I know I’m sinning And I don’t wanna be like them hypocritical Christians So I stay away from Jesus completely ‘til I’m ready to give Him Everything, but that seems like it’ll never happen My girl coming over later, you know what’s about to happen Then after smashing I’m sitting there asking If eternity in Hell is worth some moments of your satisfaction Man I’m so back and forth [Hook: Krizz Kaliko] Back and forth like a tug of war (yeah) Cause I’ve been fighting for my life like Tryna get my life right And I really want more I don’t know, back and forth like a tug of war And I been fighting for control and fighting for my soul and This is war, it’s a tug of war [Verse 2] I got two choices, both require pain One’s the pain of change and the pain of staying the same One of ‘em leads to joy, other one leads to shame One of ‘em leads to freedom, the other keeps me in chains I wear a cross and give You thanks for my blessings, ain’t that enough? Why you want everything? Can’t you leave this part of my life untouched? I thought following You meant I only had to say yes once Now everyday I wake up You give me some cross to take up You really want me to break up with my girl? Nah that’s too much I know what’s best for me, You don’t understand my complexities See, I gotta make a living so don’t ask where my checks come from I hear You talking, I ain't gone numb I know I’m in the dark and I gotta find my way to the Son Cause You’re calling on my name and I know I can’t run But I feel so back and forth [Hook] [Verse 3] A trail of broken hearts, a man full of regrets The thrill has left, the empty promises of sin sets You wanna put treasure inside my hands but You cease Cause they’re clamped, holding on to sins I won’t release I don’t know how to start loving You and stop doing what I’m doing If I gain You tell me what I’m really losing You have to change me in my sin, I never choose Him My heart needs to see something greater than what I’m pursuing so Is it true that You give rest to the weary? Can you accept and repair me, do you hear me? It’s so clearer now, it’s painfully apparent that I can’t have my sin and my Savior, they’re not for sharing Anything that I lose to follow you is not a loss My girlfriend, my friends, my money, even my job But sometimes I believe the lie That God don’t provide for His child when they obey, that’s so cray You calling me to freedom, I think that it’s time to walk I don’t see every step but the next is out of the dark I’m the filthiest of them all but I’m Yours if you wash me From that sin by the blood of that cross, I’m yours