Conflict of Languages

[Verse 1] If this was the last day you saw me, would you treat me much different? Would your heart be reminded by the scar of my thumb’s imprint? What if you didn’t see me today and I suddenly stopped reaching your way? Would your pattern of life be rattled and twined Or would you keep on your way without tweaking your face? You just seem so complacent Like you’d remain unfazed if I ever one day just Up and left without saying, tell me that ain’t it You must get your kicks from elsewhere There’s gotta be another guy with swagger and some gelled hair That tells you that you smell fair If not, then how do you exist? This mood is one of the rudiments that empower you to live You’re down exuberance and it communicates a cruel sense Of aloofness, I can’t keep doing this, how do you do it? It wasn’t like this before; you liked kissing more Now I kiss the floor as you stride in the door You’re the love of my life: you can’t have enough of my time Yet you speak in terms of buffers, at times you need months to recline In all my life, I never imagined us getting this disjointed When I ask to see you, it’s like “Sure, just schedule an appointment” You thanked me for being here, but you said it through a text message Do you appreciate my presence, or are you thankful that we’ve been separate? You’re my highest friend, the time we spend is like the best Chinese zen But all I get these days are these tiny texts that say “Hi… we set?” Our meetings are like business The fact I just used the word “meetings” to describe visits Gives me a light sickness but it seems the right ascription Because there’s no life in them I pushed too hard on my side of the scale People like us writing our fables don’t wait for another insight to the tale So we romantically abandon our ships, get stranded inside of a whale Then we cry when time passes and we're left with no sight of an angel But you’re a protagonist too You need to have the plans to map the path of your shoes So if those shoes don’t do the same dance that I do Looks like I’ll practice new moves, cause this is OUR fantasy book [Verse 2] Please have patience, my emotions are infantile I haven’t seen you in a while, so they think we’re being rivaled I have confidence it’s not correct, but tell it to my throbbing chest Put your face against my rib cage, profess until that want is dead Actually, hold on a sec, you and I both know that’s not the best Way to handle this chaotic mess, this is love, it’s not politics Don’t force yourself on me, I don’t want it if it’s not honest But please understand, I just spent so long wanting this Spent my life trying to be associated, finding someone who could go adjacent But I was always met with no relation, no one ever came close to Nathan Then suddenly you showed one day and I mustered up some hope and placed it On you, don’t wrongly take it but I hoped and prayed it wouldn’t go to waste and Every meeting I left so elated, that summer I still hold the greatest And when the fall came around, I denied that it was slowly fading I see ghosts and daymares where I hold your face here No, no, no, you can’t go, you’re the one soul I know will stay here Stay here, but who am I talking to? Cause when I shake this awful snooze, you haven’t left your father’s roof But I’m still hollow, lost, confused, wanting what called me "suave and cool" Honest truth, I guess I want back what I thought was you I want the you that enjoyed extensive embraces The you who’d always meet me with the most pleasant of faces You’d get excited for visits, go for drives in my Civic I want my best mate who would entertain stopping time for a minute Is it hiding within? If so, why then is it? I’m hintless; I’d hope you would tell me if I made you this stiff It’s kinda ridic’lous how this fickle emotional pain Originates from the ways we say love aren’t spoken the same But I have hope for our fate, we can communicate We were two earnest souls, groping for an open-eared mate Those were your statements, I know, weren’t they? So you can’t go on that note, don’t leave this way! [Verse 3] Possibly you’ve forgotten me or I just want to be worshipped It’s got me discouraged, cause all I’m ever taught to learn is Regardless of the work in, it eventually burns dim I’m a hero for 4 months before returning to a normal person I don’t wanna hear another word about the guy you broke up with If you miss him, don’t tell me, cause I will throw up sick Let’s go to a place where there’s no other guys to throw judgments And while we’re on the whole subject, that reminds me of this time when You were standing in the doorway, a guy on either side Holding a bubble tea and a T-shirt so we couldn’t even side Hug before we said bye, are we trying to make my feelings cry? Can’t you see I’m in dire need of a sign? Jeez, fine, I’m peacing, bye! I don’t know if I’ve ever shared a mutual feeling I don’t know if I’ve ever been a part of two human beings But if my world was broken, you glued the pieces If this moves you, come through, prove you still mean it