Alive

I'm in my crib feeling blast Early afternoon session and my homies just left All of a sudden started feeling mad stressed Like an elephant was standing on my mother fucking chest Now I start to panic and the game took in false Agitated by accelerated rates of my pulse I called up my lady like I think I'm dying, hon She said, get off the phone with me and call 911 I tried, cause shit was really faded in a hurry at this point The numbers on my phone was all blurry and shit But by the grace of god I managed to dial And told them please send somebody to my crib right now! I knew that that's the only way that I would stand a chance I'm a rider, but now I'll be riding in an ambulance! They found me face down on a pavement Probably thinking about my tombstone engravement Vague memories were begging for resistance They said they couldn't help me But we're just a short distance from a hospital Mass general, class medical facility, incredible professional abilities Next thing that I remember was my mom's voice Ain't she in VA and holding my hands My aunt Joyce, what's going on? How long have I been strapped to this table? I wanna speak, but the ventilator makes me not able I'm hoping that is just a nightmare But every time I open my eyes I'm right there Tools and machines everywhere, I guess they're helping me survive Well, at least I'm alive! Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Never felt more alive A so called heart attack Got you brother acting, ICU You almost murdered me It's time for a emergency, surgery In and out of consciousness, doping me up Not knowing they're about to call, open me up They couldn't hesitate, they had to saw through my chest plate It's sort of wild how they fix my aortic valve Artificial parts and wires will take months to heal Now it's for real when I say that I'm the man of steel Friday the 13th, the day that I won't be hating soon Cause friends and family was pondering in the waiting room Words spread quicker than a stronger aroma Roumer was that your boy was in a comma, yeah! Shit was serious, of course I was oblivious Damn near frozen, but not decomposing Best friend in my ear saying I'm the chosen one The resurrection, far from the dead direction Cousin hugging my arm for what felt like days For all the love I was amazed Then the docs finally let me know that I would survive I can't believe I'm alive Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Been down, been down, now, now I'm back Never felt more alive Trust me all, the shit does not tickle Tubes buried in my belly steady eatin' popsicles IVs and catheter felt like I was massacred Thanking God I'm not the one they had to buy the casket for But even now while I'm dropping this rhyme I'm recognizing if it's not your time, it's not your time! I went from an unimaginable death To smile at my homies while I took my first steps My head cleared when I stopped taking vicodin Now all I think about it is getting on this mic again And to each and everyone who said a prayer for me Shed a tear for me, maybe put one in the air for me All I Can say is thanks for giving me strength Because I truly believe you increased my life's length All I had to do is show some dedication Now all I gotta do is take a little medication You won't help me avoid disaster In the come back, better stronger and faster Now it's my mission to prove that I'm deserving Cause thanks to God ya'll and brilliant surgeons I'm alive! Been down, been down, now, now Been down, been down, now, now Been down, been down, now, now Never felt more alive, never felt more alive