Hard To Reach

[Verse 1: Adverse] In this dirty ass world it’s getting hard to breathe Getting away from myself, I’m too far to reach I regress with every slip up and every broken promise Trying to predict the end, I’m my own Nostradamus I’ve become so cold, so frozen n’ a strayed… Demons grabbing at my smiles and pullin them away Trying to stay positive, brain polluted with lies Pain comes every time the thoughts move through my mind I wanna drown my problems, put em up in smoke Wash it down with perks, have another dose… But I don’t got enough pain killers to numb my heart So I try and hide all of it under art… But under my songs, crawls the most pained person Which leads me to believe this act ain’t workin How do I ever expect to live out my dreams When I can’t even get a grip on reality… [HookX2] It’s getting so hard just to find some solid ground Friends turn foes just see strangers all around… Getting hard to reach, I’m fallin down… Help me help me! That’s all I’m callin out [Verse 2: Adverse] It’s funny how most people don’t know the other side of me I got to admit, I hate it and it’s quite ugly… They think of Shaun, the sweety who laughs a lot They don’t even know half my heart… My mind takes twist and turns, burns when it’s after dark In the day I wear a mask so I don’t have the scars But when the covers off, it’s a canvas of pain… I’m looking for the right brush to have happiness paint But he’s so picky, I don’t think I’ll ever please him So for a reason I have a December in every season… It’s not that I have it bad, I love my fuckin life It’s just the anxiety’s I have seem to fluster in the night That’s why I try to stay in the light, stay talkative too When death’s around the corner plottin his next move When you’re the oldest son and ambitions ridin all on you Only so much this armor could hold understand if I’m not in the mood [HookX2]