Heart of Darkness

[Verse 1] I've been so fucked up and empty these past few months I'm so angry and on edge, I'd smash you chumps for nothing And I'm still a whore, a few bucks for me to say Some ignorant shit, and make it too dumb for me to play And I don't do drugs, so truth sucks and eats away At my soul with too much of crazy shit for me to sway On a peaceful day, I'm still thinking chaos I'm made up of pain, guilt and sorrow in the deepest way And I could see the day I'm lonely at the top You want me to play? - Fuck that, I'm scoping for my shot Approach you with a drop, yeah, it's dope, you know it's hot But all your focus was the beat and how I flowed but you forgot - how I wrote this, I put my heart and my soul in this I'm humble as it gets, but still, a part of me knows I'm sick Retarded? - you hoes will get departed and thrown in shit "calm down, man, you're starting to go insane" [Hook: samples including Slick Rick] Children, children, why Tell me why you're crying Tell me why Don't cry, dry your eyes [Verse 2] And lately, I've been dropping every lame to cross me So frustrating to watch how they label and mock me And they take me as cocky just to frame me and knock me But they - failing to stop me and I'm reigning on top I've had 20 years down the road, still I've been real Seen tears drown me slow, in between fears Screams blaring out my soul, I never seem scared Cause even deep down, I know that the weak fail I walk a tight rope, and it's sad to see No pills, not a thing could put me back to sleep Eyes bloodshot red; it's a tragedy And I'm stuck with my father's personality A heart of darkness; pumping black blood I stand tall, tattooed and I act tough Defense mechanisms, cause nobody bothers To see beyond what they want, it's a fucking problem [Hook: samples including Slick Rick] Children, children, why Tell me why you're crying Tell me why Don't cry, dry your eyes