Losing Me

[Intro] And he never knows but bit by bit by bit The man who changes And he becomes a more rounded human being [Verse 1] I’m tryna find peace in every line between my rhymes and beats Between my god and momma, I’m just tryna honor each I love my maker but I ain’t in a rush to meet him I flirt with death cause life a bitch but I ain’t tryna leave her My dreams are feelin’ outta reach And I been chasin ‘em so long I’m losin’ sleep Can I keep the pace or should I wake up, or should I stay up? You know life, it gots it’s ups and down like elevators But like escaltors my flow is movin’ people Being watched by angels listening to the evils Catch me, I’m slippin’, fallin’, please I’m hearing voices callin’ me I need this cloud to follow someone else I ain’t been feelin’ like myself I think I need to find some kind of help Maybe I’m tripping guess I’m losin my mind I’m still here but disappearin’ right before my very eyes [Hook: Add-2 & Nida Nasheeda] Losin’ me, losin’ me Need you cause I’m losin’ me Losin’ me, please don’t go no Please don’t leave, please don’t leave [Verse 2] Dear momma, no don’t smile the way I used to That’s the way of the world and what it do to you I got the weight of the world still on my small shoulders You watch that chip become a boulder watch my heart get colder But somewhere inside that boy who never liked to see you leavin’ us for work Waitin’ on the bus, transfers in your purse Standin’ in the rain, wantin’ better for us Funny how you feel my pain without it being discussed I told you how I had a show and how the crowd had they hands up You asked if I been eatin’ knowin’ no is still the answer That’s that drive momma, I know it drive you insane I’m still alive momma, I hate to worry your brain The fans’ll tell ya I’m puttin’ on a hell of a show But you scared you gon’ find me passed out on the floor again Sititn’ by my bed in the E.R Hopin’ I won’t be gone [Hook] [Verse 3] Lord I need you cause the devil got his hands on me I’m tryna understand your plan for me, but Feel like my hourglass is runnin’ out of sand on me But I just need a chance, just one chance To see myself for everything I am and everything I’m tryna be But I’m fightin’ with myself tryna save myself from me Nothing’s promised in this life but death is guaranteed And it follows like a shadow tryna watch the life I lead I know that Webster’s couldn’t tell you what’s the meanin’ of life That you only scared to die when you ain’t livin’ it right Well then I’m scared as hell cause Satan’s waitin’ I hate to get to heaven’s gate and they say I ain’t make it So if it’s gonna rain then let it rain then All I ask is that you make this clear a changed man If you hafta break me down just to put me back together Then let me lose me so I can find somethin’ better